Anonymous asked: I talked to him last night. He misses you more than anything. He didn't go into detail, and I didn't force him to. But he wants more than anything for you to know that he's dying inside, knowing that you're hurting this way. He very much wanted to ask you to be his again, but being that he was the one to break it off, he doesn't know what to say and how to act. He still calls you bubba. He said he wouldn't say "I love you" as often anymore. But knowing Ray, he probably said it ever since you two broke it off. He told me he feels like you forget about the love you two shared; and he feels like it's his duty to remind you everyday.
Jake, you don't know me that well, and I don't mean to come off as knowing too much about you two, but honestly, being in a relationship gives you a title. Even without that title, it's still possible to love each other. Nothing has to change. He really does still love you. I don't know you, but I know him. Inside and out. And his love for you hasn't faded. Trust in that truth, for both your sakes.
I just can’t understand why there’s a cloud fogging my thoughts about everything. My mind is slowly changing, I don’t know why. I still love him so much, my hurt is equivalent to how much I loved him but I need some time to absorb all this. As much as I want to absorb reality, it hurts every time I invite it into my conscious. All I can say is that I’m scared, lost and confused. Can I trust the truth, or having to live my life with false dreams. I’m pretty messed up right now to even focus on reality or organize my thoughts. A friend once told me that “everything will be ok, it’ll all work out”, I said to myself, “How many times I heard that before” but the majority of the time it all worked out in the end, but it all depends what “it’ll worked out” ment to the whole situation. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going to give up, I will stand on my two feet and get this relationship going back on track, with him or without.
